peace&niche

Ever find yourself asking a million questions about life? I’ve been there, especially lately. Maybe it’s turning 30, maybe it’s something deeper, but I’ve been wrestling with some big ‘what ifs.‘

I left my job recently. Not because I hated it, but because I realized something crucial: ‘career’ doesn’t equal ‘purpose.’ Time feels so precious now. I started wondering, ‘Do I really want to spend the next decade doing something that just…fills time?’

Don’t get me wrong, I learned a lot. There were moments of creativity I enjoyed. But that feeling of deep fulfillment? It was missing. I was working because that’s what we do, right? To pay the bills, to keep up.

Then, bam, 30 years had gone by. And I realized, I hadn’t really asked myself, ‘Am I truly happy?’ The answer, honestly, was no. I’d been telling myself, ‘Just a few more years, then you can live.’ What a trap that was! Waiting for some magical ‘right time’ that never comes.

I’ve learned there’s no waiting. It’s now or never. To either start building a life that feels authentic or to let fear and societal expectations dictate my path.

So, here I am, taking those scary, exciting steps. I don’t have a ‘real job’ by society’s standards, but I’m doing things that genuinely light me up. Some days, the worry creeps in—about the future, about stability. But I’m learning to focus on the good, on the present moment, on what brings me joy.

For me, that’s experimenting with incense making, diving into recipes and ingredients, and dreaming up new projects. It’s about letting go of the ‘shoulds’ and embracing what feels right.

I think we all have those moments of questioning, of wondering if we’re on the right track. It’s okay to not have all the answers. It’s okay to change course. It’s okay to prioritize happiness and fulfillment over societal expectations.